The other day, I came across this quote from Osho :
And it actually took me back to reflect on the years past and all I went through this horrible year 2015. It brought me to reflect on all my past , my whole life… I was always longing for more from life, I still have some reflexes to ask for more but mainly I finally feel that I am at peace with myself, that I am enough, that I matter and that I can be accepted and loved as I am.
It was not an easy or an evident path, for a long time I meandered through life by following what others were dictating as being what I should do and ignoring my own self to fit into a social standard, I now understand that this was not my life I was living, I was merely trying to survive in a sea of sheep.
Maybe maturity has finally brought me to realise that I don’t have to keep working a standard 9 to 5 job if I don’t want to, I don’t have to have a house, be married, have 2.5 children and a dog if I don’t want to. What I owe to myself is way more vast than that : I have to come to the end of my Life and be able to tell myself that I did good to myself, that I was happy. Otherwise, what exactly is the point of living ?
I don’t consider fitting in is a good reason to keep doing tasks and fulfill routines that don’t bring me joy.
I am ready to compromise a little but now I will not let myself be overworked , burn out or disrespect in my job ever again. I will no longer fulfill a path that others have envisioned for me in my stead, unless it actually is what makes me happy. I will actively seek what makes me happy , what brings me joy , my bliss, because that is what encompasses my passions and that is therefore where I will excel and thrive !
I owe it to myself and so do you !